I'm alive

Danny and I were watching this japanese series based on a true story - 'One Litre of Tears'.
It's about a diary written by this girl with an incurable brain disease, Ikeuchi Aya.

It was a cruel sickness as the dying brain not only was taking away her ability to walk, to move, to speak, to swallow, to write, to read; it also progressed very slowly and left her conscious throughout.
When she soon realised her inability to do anything anymore, the only reason for her to live on was to continue writing her diary.
This diary was published after her death and has inspired lots of people for generations.
It was later converted into a movie and a series.

Quotes from 'One Litre of Tears':

'I really don't want to say things such as "I want to go back to how things were before". I recognise how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.'

'Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I don't even have the right to dream. As I think about the future, the tears will come out again.'

'Even though I have been hurt before by those heartless glares, this also helped me to understand that around me, there still exists some gentle glares. Therefore, I definitely won't run away. That's what I'll do. Definitely. Always.'

'When my existence seems to disappear
I will look for the place where I can do the best I can
From now on
I won't be impatient
I won't be greedy
I won't give up
Because everyone takes things step by step.'

'If you look up at the sky after falling down, the blue sky is also today stretching limitlessly and smiles at me...I'm alive.'

At first I resisted to watch even after Danny told me how good it is, because I was really afraid of crying out one litre of tears while watching it.
But after watching it, I realised those tears come with hope and warmth. It's worth shedding them for her.

Like what she said, 'To be able to smile and tell everyone this; i have, at least, cried one litre of tears. '

No matter how difficult things will be, they no longer matter anymore.
Because I'm alive.
I am alive.