Add ons for the previous post

Just some clarifications with regard to the previous post:

When I say 'understanding darkness',
I am not trying to be a psychologist, or some philosopher,
Or a religious leader hoping to inspire someone.
I know my limits.

My intention is pure.
I am just trying to get something out of those bad experiences.

I once thought that I am able to deal with things like these.
But no, I hadn't been thinking too much previously.
That is why I was still unprepared even at the second time.

I really want to learn something from it now.

Shakespeare's quote at the end of this blog is there to remind me to take the chance when it comes.
And to use this life-learning experience for my future dealings.

This is my intention.
My only intention. :)

Songs of the heart

Black background. The darkest hour is before dawn. Lonely figure on the path.

If you can notice, this blog is aimed to understand darkness in life.

My first post. Lights along the path. Stars in the sky.

If you can realise, despite how dark things can be, I still believe that there is something there for us to stay strong and hold on.

The songs are just there to reflect some of my feelings.
I don't want to make this too obvious as it will somehow lose the beauty of secrecy. :P
So I will just highlight the sentences which I think have made an impact to me.

***

1st song: 不想懂得 - 张韶涵

当世界 不知不觉的变了
有时候 我怀念以前的我
作的梦 虽然远远的
想像是 一种快乐

拥有了 同时也失去什么
而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟
心开始曲折

我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

我不想舍得 不想懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
互相照顾就是 幸福的
（能握着手就是 感动的）

Repeat

我愿意 一秒钟放弃全宇宙
只在只有我们紧靠着的小星球

我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

我多不舍得 多不懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是 感动的

***

2nd song: 真的我没事 - 符致逸

On and on, the pain goes on
And it wouldn't just wouldn't die
我竟远比想像中软弱且无能为力
对你的眼神 选择了逃避
恨自己 恨自己

On and on, the pain lives on
It's hurting so much more
就像我被悔不当初的罪恶吞去
惩罚过后能否带来解脱
I'll be fine I'll be fine

So many cried, listening to God
让坚强不只是种伪装
So many lies, listening to you
天亮后I will be fine

On and on, the pain goes on and I just don't know how to cope
伸手抱住自己是否就能够不再空虚
最后信念别放弃
I will be fine I will be fine

So many cried, listening to you
希望你能再给我力量
So many lies, listening to you
什么时候I will be fine

当我再也不对任何事期待
只剩下你只剩下你
有天当我舍弃一切见你 请你要微笑不语

So many cried, listening to you
希望你能再给我力量
So many lies, listening to you
什么时候I will be fine

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3rd song - Light of my life - Lara Fabian and Lee Hom Wang

Wandering like a leaf upon the wind
I have been searching for someone
Holding out for a love to shake my soul
Heaven or nothing
Then you walked into my life
In a blaze of light
I've never wanted someone more
You are the one I've waited for

*Light of my life
You are the fire in my heart
When I am lost I know
I'll feel you burning in the dark

You're the light of my life
Every star in the sky
Shines more brightly when you're at my side
You're the light of my life *

Dreaming, I feel you next to me
No, I'm not, I'm not dreaming
'Cause I'm drowning in your kiss
I die in your arms
And when I hear you call my name
Baby, it's like I'm born again

Repeat Chorus*

Your love's a lantern in the rain
Bringing me home time and again
Burning like an eternal flame

Light of my life
You're the beat of my heart
When I am lost
When you're lost I know
You'll see me shining
Shining in the dark

You're the light of my life
Like the stars in the sky
Only you can take me through
You're the only one who makes it right
Only you set fire to the night
You're the light of my life

***

4th song: 灰色空间 - 罗志祥

原来不是白就是黑
只不过是天真的以为
要醉得清醒　要无辜的犯罪
现实的世界只有灰

坚强得太久好疲惫
想抱爱的人沉沉的睡
卷来的风暴　凶猛里有种美
死了心　痛就没感觉

灰色空间　我是谁
记不得幸福是什么滋味
无路可退　你是谁
怎么为我流泪

梦见发着光的草原
一身伤回到很久以前
我选择不恨　带着平静走远
醒来后　夜还是长夜

Repeat

紧抱着我流泪

***
5th song： 几分 - 罗志祥

不管昨天你对我说过了什么
今天的我还是依然依然沉默
两个人生气着
看着谁先舍不得
何必这样来试探我们的缘份

不管昨天我对你说过了什么
今天的你还是依然依然自我
问这要到什么时候
才会觉得无法忍受
难道这样才证明爱得有多深

所以爱有几分
这是你不停的疑问
你的心里对我有多认真
何必执着在我的部分

所以爱有几分
这是你永远的疑问
只有最后一切才有定论

Repeat

所以爱有几分
这是你永远的疑问
只有最后一切才有定论
没有值不值得当失去了 有什么好争
就在转身之后 我的不舍有多么的真

所以爱有几分
这是你不停的疑问
你的心里对我有多认真
何必执着在我的部分

所以爱有几分
这是你永远的疑问
只有最后一切才有定论
只有最后一切才有定论

***

6th song: 杨宗纬- 你看

路越走越苦 越腐烂
剩下从无到有的明白
这世界好坏 有太多姿态
要我拿梦来交换

转弯 寻个方向躲起来
默许被污染的应该
坚持在澎湃 好想大声喊
不要没收我对纯真的依赖

你看那四季的剪彩
你看那寒暑的编排
你看那生命的色彩
就算哭了也不能重来

有一天你平静去看
会发现自己有多狭窄
睁开眼 还是面对黑暗

我知道你内心的深海依然湛蓝
那為什么会没有爱

你看多余的空白
会有温暖细细填满
你看我身上的羽毛
透过歌声慢慢闪耀

有一天你平静去看
会感觉自己变得慷慨
才恍然感动已活过来


Hope you like them. THE END :)

One Tin Soldier Rides Away

OK, before you actually read this post.
Scroll down a little and click on the youtube link.
Here is a song for you.
Still reading?? CLICK NOW :p

I first heard this song from Sam Hui's concert and was touched by its lyrics.
It was originally sung in 'The Legend of Billy Jack' by Coven.
Quin Er called yesterday, asking me to prompt her the melody.
In fact she did a reverse effect, and reminded me about this song long lost in my memories.

I was tempted to put it on my playlist, but sadly it doesn't fit to my theme.
So I now link it from this post.

Here you go, a real good song - one tin soldier.



Listen, children, to a story
That was written long ago,
'Bout a kingdom on a mountain
And the valley-folk below.

On the mountain was a treasure
Buried deep beneath the stone,
And the valley-people swore
They'd have it for their very own.

Chorus:
*Go ahead and hate your neighbor,
Go ahead and cheat a friend.
Do it in the name of Heaven,
You can justify it in the end.
There won't be any trumpets blowing
Come the judgement day,
On the bloody morning after....
One tin soldier rides away*

So the people of the valley
Sent a message up the hill,
Asking for the buried treasure,
Tons of gold for which they'd kill.

Came an answer from the kingdom,
"With our brothers we will share
All the secrets of our mountain,
All the riches buried there."

Now the valley cried with anger,
"Mount your horses! Draw your sword!"
And they killed the mountain-people,
So they won their just reward.

Now they stood beside the treasure,
On the mountain, dark and red.
Turned the stone and looked beneath it...
"Peace on Earth" was all it said.

Repeat Chorus* x2


If the way things happen is way too dark for you to believe again
At least believe in this:
What goes around comes around.
Trust me, it is true.

Happy Birthday Big Spring :)

Dear Yihui a.k.a Athena,

If I am to buy three things for you on your 21st birthday, I will get you:

1. A sexy dress with the least amount of cloth


2. A hot guy as your boyfriend



3. And a private jet to fly you to UK
But since I have no such purchasing power at the moment, I think these pictures will do for now. Keke. :P

On top of that, to compensate such a regrettable loss (esp the second item), I shall sing you a song here:

Happy Birthday To You~~
Happy Birthday To You~~
Happy Birthday To Da Chun~~
Happy Birthday To you you you you you.....


Qian 1: Serious a bit lar~~ It's Yihui's 21st birthday k??
Qian 2: Okokok. Soli soli. Wish you ~~~ ermmm ~~ not to be too burdened by your big b**ps. Sense some jealousy here?! Wakakaka. Sorry la, simply fail to be serious in front of you...

p.s. Hope you like our video clips and tell me once you got the parcel ;)

Updates on 10/11/2008

Did I tell you that I want this blog to be more like a journal rather than a personal diary?

As Yihui kept praising me about how fit I am to be a journalist, so despite being a thick-faced person, I want to take this as my little tryout. My ultimate aim - hopefully - is to publish a photographic journal. :p

But I still want to keep my friends up-to-date. So I will have short columns like this - specially dedicated to all of you - about my recent 'boring' life.

-Updates on 10/11/2008-

I sang karaoke till 4 in the morning last Saturday. Tell you this - it is a real fun seeing your friends get drunk while you are completely sane - of course cancelling out the part when you have to yell at them so that they can stay on the pavement instead of walking right in the middle of road.

Yes we all looked drunk. lalala.

Part I:

Scene 1:
* Adrian (2nd from the right) took up Sin Yew's (1st from the right) challenge to down a jar of beer while I was sitting as a gaping audience next to these two crazy fellas.

Scene 2:
Sin Yew then told us to wave goodbye to Adrian, which I think was a very wise thing to do at that time. Because we all knew - that's it for Adrian tonight. He is not going to remember anything beyond this point.

Scene 3:
Adrian was still talking to us in his Malaysian accent. No - he is not drunk - not yet. We shall wait a little while more. One minute...two minutes....

Scene 4:
5-10 minutes later, I overheard someone speaking in a British accent across the room.
Ah ha! It's Adrian. Certified - he is now drunk.

They once told me before - Adrian will start off with his British slang when he is drunk. At first, I didn't believe it at all. But now I believe, wholly with my heart.

Lol.
I never know that slang can be one of the many indicators of drunkenness.



Part II:
Scene 1:
Sin Yew insisted on cooking fried rice for us.
Well that's a nice thing to do.
BUT NOT AT 4AM IN THE MORNING.
Apparently, when Sin Yew is drunk, instead of having another country's accent, he often chooses to be a cleaner.

Well not this time. Because he chose to be a cook tonight/morning.

Imagine: At 4am in the morning, all of us were forced to sit down at the dining table, waiting for fried rice to be served. -.-

Scene 2:
Sin Yew was trying to get something from the fridge.
Opened the fridge - looked up and down - everything was pretty fine - until he pulled out one of the racks in the fridge, thinking that it was a drawer.

Scene 3:
Great! Yoghurt spilled on the floor.
Mourn for our first casualty: Bio-yoghurt (tropical fruits flavour).

Scene 4:
Serena and I were cleaning up the mess on the floor.
Captions in our heads: what are we doing?? wiping yoghurt at 4am?
Conclusion: SinYew is clearly drunk.

Scene 4:
We had our fried rice and went to bed.
I heard noises from the kitchen.
It's Sin Yew...
Haha you know what happened next - yes he was washing the plates and woks.

Lol.
Great weekend! Great fun! Great laugh!

If I tell you this is Ah-Niu's effect rather than ecstasy - will you believe?

p.s. this turned out to be a very 'short' post. with apologies, qian :)