第一次感动，是当在不留心时，被一个旋律，被一段文字深深吸引，然后会心的一笑。
第二次感动，来自细细品尝歌词时，那个意境和角度带来的那种恰到好处的抽心和无止境的想象。
第三次感动，是当观察幕后制作群时，看到了熟悉的名字，或新起的希望。
第四次感动，是随音乐一起哼唱时，被旋律歌词卷入那首歌中，内心的那种澎湃悸动。
第五次感动，是当闭上双眼聆听整首歌时，被那用心的编曲和歌曲的完整度深深折服。
第六次感动，是当有一天碰到一些人生的起跌，听到同一首歌时的感同身受和如朋友似的安慰。
第七次感动，是当过了好些日子，人变不同了，再听回这一首歌时，却有的不同领会。
歌曲给我而言，是没有限度的感动。
像是有人用了最好听的声音，最美丽的词汇，最动人的旋律将你心中不敢表达的，不会表达的，却深深认同的都唱了出来。
有时像共鸣，有时是突然的懂得，有时像如释重负，有时不过是最原始，最纯粹的享受。
这就是我喜欢聆听的原因。
Monday, February 8, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
What's next??
Whoa unbelievable!
I am back in Malaysia for almost 4 months.
But it feels like I've been back here for a year or so.
Maybe because I am too busy working.
If because of my disappearance in the blogger or online world, and you are wondering what is this Cheah Wan Qian doing - I can tell you that I am now working my ass off in my dad's company.
The feeling of finally ending my student's life and getting into the 'real world' is overwhelming - overwhelming excitement and overwhelming stress.
I am blessed, because I only get the taste of paying for my own expenses now.
Even though it's a heart ache, but I'm glad to finally get out of the stupid-spoilt-moron list and be financially independent.
However despite me working from morning till late evening on the weekdays, and studying my CFA on the weekends, this packed schedule comes with some kind of emptiness.
Maybe because of the fact that I know what am I doing now, but I do not know where am I heading to.
Undeniably, I am learning a lot of things now, more than any other companies can give me, and I am enjoying the work, but still, something is missing.
Perhaps I am in a desperate need of one clear direction, the reason I am working this hard right now.
Dad is nagging me about BAR exams.
Am I a lawyer?
I am applying for consulting firms right now, and thinking of MBA degree in U.S after few years of working experience, and planning to start my own business somehow.
I'm pretty screwed right now am I?
I really don't want to be those aquarium fishes in the last scene of 'Finding Nemo'.
After so much effort of getting themselves into sealed plastic bags (without knowing how to open them) and rolled themselves all the way to the sea, then only they asked themselves 'what's next'?
Or you can say, at least they are not in the aquarium now, they are one step closer.
I am back in Malaysia for almost 4 months.
But it feels like I've been back here for a year or so.
Maybe because I am too busy working.
If because of my disappearance in the blogger or online world, and you are wondering what is this Cheah Wan Qian doing - I can tell you that I am now working my ass off in my dad's company.
The feeling of finally ending my student's life and getting into the 'real world' is overwhelming - overwhelming excitement and overwhelming stress.
I am blessed, because I only get the taste of paying for my own expenses now.
Even though it's a heart ache, but I'm glad to finally get out of the stupid-spoilt-moron list and be financially independent.
However despite me working from morning till late evening on the weekdays, and studying my CFA on the weekends, this packed schedule comes with some kind of emptiness.
Maybe because of the fact that I know what am I doing now, but I do not know where am I heading to.
Undeniably, I am learning a lot of things now, more than any other companies can give me, and I am enjoying the work, but still, something is missing.
Perhaps I am in a desperate need of one clear direction, the reason I am working this hard right now.
Dad is nagging me about BAR exams.
Am I a lawyer?
I am applying for consulting firms right now, and thinking of MBA degree in U.S after few years of working experience, and planning to start my own business somehow.
I'm pretty screwed right now am I?
I really don't want to be those aquarium fishes in the last scene of 'Finding Nemo'.
After so much effort of getting themselves into sealed plastic bags (without knowing how to open them) and rolled themselves all the way to the sea, then only they asked themselves 'what's next'?
Or you can say, at least they are not in the aquarium now, they are one step closer.
What's next??
Whoa unbelievable!
I am back in Malaysia for almost 4 months.
But it felt like I've been back here for a year or so.
Maybe because I am too busy working.
If because of my disappearance in the blogger or online world, and you are wondering what is this Cheah Wan Qian doing - I can tell you that I am now working my ass off in my dad's company.
The feeling of finally ending my student's life and getting into the 'real world' is overwhelming.
Overwhelming excitement and overwhelming stress.
I am blessed, that is why only until now I finally get the taste of paying for my own expenses, credit card bills, petrol etc.
Even though it's a heart ache, but I'm glad to finally get out of the stupid-spoilt-moron list and be financially independent.
However despite me working from morning till late evening on the weekdays, and studying my CFA on the weekends, this packed schedule comes with some kind of emptiness.
Maybe because of the fact that I know what am I doing now, but I do not know where am I heading to.
Undeniably, I am learning a lot of things now, more than any other companies can give me, and I am enjoying the work, but still, something is missing.
Perhaps I am in a desperate need of one clear direction, the reason I am working this hard right now.
Dad is nagging me about BAR exams.
Am I a lawyer?
I am applying for consulting firms right now, and thinking of MBA degree in U.S after few years of working experience, and planning to start my own business somehow.
I'm pretty screwed right now am I?
I really don't want to be those aquarium fishes in the last scene of 'Finding Nemo'.
After so much effort of getting themselves into sealed plastic bags (without knowing how to open them) and rolled themselves all the way to the sea, then only they asked themselves 'what's next'?
Or you can say, at least they are not in the aquarium now, they are one step closer.
I am back in Malaysia for almost 4 months.
But it felt like I've been back here for a year or so.
Maybe because I am too busy working.
If because of my disappearance in the blogger or online world, and you are wondering what is this Cheah Wan Qian doing - I can tell you that I am now working my ass off in my dad's company.
The feeling of finally ending my student's life and getting into the 'real world' is overwhelming.
Overwhelming excitement and overwhelming stress.
I am blessed, that is why only until now I finally get the taste of paying for my own expenses, credit card bills, petrol etc.
Even though it's a heart ache, but I'm glad to finally get out of the stupid-spoilt-moron list and be financially independent.
However despite me working from morning till late evening on the weekdays, and studying my CFA on the weekends, this packed schedule comes with some kind of emptiness.
Maybe because of the fact that I know what am I doing now, but I do not know where am I heading to.
Undeniably, I am learning a lot of things now, more than any other companies can give me, and I am enjoying the work, but still, something is missing.
Perhaps I am in a desperate need of one clear direction, the reason I am working this hard right now.
Dad is nagging me about BAR exams.
Am I a lawyer?
I am applying for consulting firms right now, and thinking of MBA degree in U.S after few years of working experience, and planning to start my own business somehow.
I'm pretty screwed right now am I?
I really don't want to be those aquarium fishes in the last scene of 'Finding Nemo'.
After so much effort of getting themselves into sealed plastic bags (without knowing how to open them) and rolled themselves all the way to the sea, then only they asked themselves 'what's next'?
Or you can say, at least they are not in the aquarium now, they are one step closer.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
回忆盒
今天菀莉菀暄在房间里找出了一箱‘宝盒’，里面装的都是我的回忆。
当时在出国前把所有有纪念价值的东西都放到盒子里去，想不到三年后的今天竟然‘重见天日’了。
翻开看看，有好多让我会心一笑的小东西。
有学生给我的卡片，有小学纪念册，有朋友出国时买给我的纪念品，有以前收集的名信片等等。
回忆像倒翻了的酱油，不间断地流了一桌。
心情也像装满了的杯子。那满满地，悬在边缘的感觉，比刚刚好再多一些些。
此时去赫然发现，怎么盒子里少了一段时期的纪念品？
是那时太忙了吗，忘了为自己留下些什么？
还是那是太害怕了，不敢为自己留下些什么？
留下了，我又有勇气去翻阅吗？
好像没有。
人总有一些不想面对的过去，不想想起的人事物。
可偏偏这些事物是不需要小东西去提醒自己也会忆起的。
或许根本就不该忘记。
一些尘封的回忆。
把盒子盖好，让它藏在心里一个黑暗的角落里去。
不会看见，也不会消失。
当时在出国前把所有有纪念价值的东西都放到盒子里去，想不到三年后的今天竟然‘重见天日’了。
翻开看看，有好多让我会心一笑的小东西。
有学生给我的卡片，有小学纪念册，有朋友出国时买给我的纪念品，有以前收集的名信片等等。
回忆像倒翻了的酱油，不间断地流了一桌。
心情也像装满了的杯子。那满满地，悬在边缘的感觉，比刚刚好再多一些些。
此时去赫然发现，怎么盒子里少了一段时期的纪念品？
是那时太忙了吗，忘了为自己留下些什么？
还是那是太害怕了，不敢为自己留下些什么？
留下了，我又有勇气去翻阅吗？
好像没有。
人总有一些不想面对的过去，不想想起的人事物。
可偏偏这些事物是不需要小东西去提醒自己也会忆起的。
或许根本就不该忘记。
一些尘封的回忆。
把盒子盖好，让它藏在心里一个黑暗的角落里去。
不会看见，也不会消失。
Thursday, October 15, 2009
OL addiction
As I am officially an OL now, I am getting addicted to heels and bags.
These are the two most important items if you want to make a difference in your relatively boring office look. :)
Heels have the amazing power of demonstrating both your corporate strength and feminine side, while carrying a good bag is like showcasing your taste, attracting the envious looks of other females.
We, women, are crazy creatures - yes that's the universal truth.
Long story short - my recent favorites:
Heels from Charles and Keith - affordable taste!!
I bought two pairs of them within two weeks. Yes I am now burried in guilt, without complaints though. :p
My next target:
Gucci latest collection:
Forever Superstar Shopper Bag by Fendi
:)
These are the two most important items if you want to make a difference in your relatively boring office look. :)
Heels have the amazing power of demonstrating both your corporate strength and feminine side, while carrying a good bag is like showcasing your taste, attracting the envious looks of other females.
We, women, are crazy creatures - yes that's the universal truth.
Long story short - my recent favorites:
Heels from Charles and Keith - affordable taste!!
I bought two pairs of them within two weeks. Yes I am now burried in guilt, without complaints though. :p
My next target:
Gucci latest collection:
Forever Superstar Shopper Bag by Fendi
:)
Sunsweet prunes - keep the doctors away!
As I was gobbling down every Malaysian food I can find since I came back, I have literally got myself into deep shit.
Qian's food equation:
Asam Laksa + Curry Laksa + Pan Mee + Seafood + Tomyam = constipation.
*shy*
I prefer to phrase it as...ahem.. irritated bowel.
So I went to the doctor that day.
And to my surprise, for one single sickness, she actually prescribed me five types of medicine.
One for 'angin' (direct translation: wind), one for 'sakit perut (stomach pain), one for 'fibre', and one for 'digestion'.
As for last one which looked exactly like charcoal, I forgot what was it for.
I instantly felt like I am one of those old ladies who is having a full package of elderly sicknesses - heart problems, diabetes and high blood pressure.
Consultation and medication cost: RM50++
*ching ching - $ sound*
I have to admit that the yellow and orange tablets were pretty effective.
In fact, TOO effective.
I had to rush to the toilet after every meal.
But once I stopped the medication, the same problem occurred again.
So I felt like a bloated pregnant woman for almost a week.
The difference is instead of a baby, I was carrying a stomach full of ....
Giving up on the idea of seeking for more medication, I decided to head to Jusco for some Sunsweet prunes.
I ate 6 of them.
And just like what you expect - everything is back to normal again.
I feel so light that I think I can fly!!
One can of sunsweet prunes: RM8.90.
You can even have some extra prunes for more Malaysian food.
:)
Quote of the day: why see dr. when you have sunsweet prunes?
Management of sunsweet prunes, if you are searching for a spokesperson...
ME! ME! ME! *eagerly waving my hand*
Qian's food equation:
Asam Laksa + Curry Laksa + Pan Mee + Seafood + Tomyam = constipation.
*shy*
I prefer to phrase it as...ahem.. irritated bowel.
So I went to the doctor that day.
And to my surprise, for one single sickness, she actually prescribed me five types of medicine.
One for 'angin' (direct translation: wind), one for 'sakit perut (stomach pain), one for 'fibre', and one for 'digestion'.
As for last one which looked exactly like charcoal, I forgot what was it for.
I instantly felt like I am one of those old ladies who is having a full package of elderly sicknesses - heart problems, diabetes and high blood pressure.
Consultation and medication cost: RM50++
*ching ching - $ sound*
I have to admit that the yellow and orange tablets were pretty effective.
In fact, TOO effective.
I had to rush to the toilet after every meal.
But once I stopped the medication, the same problem occurred again.
So I felt like a bloated pregnant woman for almost a week.
The difference is instead of a baby, I was carrying a stomach full of ....
Giving up on the idea of seeking for more medication, I decided to head to Jusco for some Sunsweet prunes.
I ate 6 of them.
And just like what you expect - everything is back to normal again.
I feel so light that I think I can fly!!
One can of sunsweet prunes: RM8.90.
You can even have some extra prunes for more Malaysian food.
:)
Quote of the day: why see dr. when you have sunsweet prunes?
Management of sunsweet prunes, if you are searching for a spokesperson...
ME! ME! ME! *eagerly waving my hand*
Title
Figures figures figures.
I am taking ages to process this whole stack of figures in front of me.
Wish that I was aware of the importance of mathematics during my school days.
But perasanly speaking, I think I am quite good at processing information and digging out the insights from any given resources.
So gambate Qian.
On a side note, I am applying for jobs in UK branding consultancy firms.
After working in my dad's company, I believe that some international exposure would do me some good.
But I was just thinking about the title of my current job.
Research consultant? Sounds like I make it up myself.
Consultant? A bit exaggerating.
Boss's daughter? Too honest.
So I ended up with 'researcher'.
And I am looking like a bespectacled nerd now.
I am taking ages to process this whole stack of figures in front of me.
Wish that I was aware of the importance of mathematics during my school days.
But perasanly speaking, I think I am quite good at processing information and digging out the insights from any given resources.
So gambate Qian.
On a side note, I am applying for jobs in UK branding consultancy firms.
After working in my dad's company, I believe that some international exposure would do me some good.
But I was just thinking about the title of my current job.
Research consultant? Sounds like I make it up myself.
Consultant? A bit exaggerating.
Boss's daughter? Too honest.
So I ended up with 'researcher'.
And I am looking like a bespectacled nerd now.
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