What's next??

Whoa unbelievable!
I am back in Malaysia for almost 4 months.
But it felt like I've been back here for a year or so.

Maybe because I am too busy working.
If because of my disappearance in the blogger or online world, and you are wondering what is this Cheah Wan Qian doing - I can tell you that I am now working my ass off in my dad's company.

The feeling of finally ending my student's life and getting into the 'real world' is overwhelming.
Overwhelming excitement and overwhelming stress.
I am blessed, that is why only until now I finally get the taste of paying for my own expenses, credit card bills, petrol etc.
Even though it's a heart ache, but I'm glad to finally get out of the stupid-spoilt-moron list and be financially independent.

However despite me working from morning till late evening on the weekdays, and studying my CFA on the weekends, this packed schedule comes with some kind of emptiness.
Maybe because of the fact that I know what am I doing now, but I do not know where am I heading to.
Undeniably, I am learning a lot of things now, more than any other companies can give me, and I am enjoying the work, but still, something is missing.
Perhaps I am in a desperate need of one clear direction, the reason I am working this hard right now.

Dad is nagging me about BAR exams.
Am I a lawyer?
I am applying for consulting firms right now, and thinking of MBA degree in U.S after few years of working experience, and planning to start my own business somehow.

I'm pretty screwed right now am I?
I really don't want to be those aquarium fishes in the last scene of 'Finding Nemo'.
After so much effort of getting themselves into sealed plastic bags (without knowing how to open them) and rolled themselves all the way to the sea, then only they asked themselves 'what's next'?

Or you can say, at least they are not in the aquarium now, they are one step closer.